Content: Waiting

Have you ever been in a season of "waiting"?

Where you are waiting on God to show you what is next?

Or are you waiting for His answer to a prayer? 

Or are you waiting, but you are not quiet sure what it is you are waiting for?

Sometimes I am playing the waiting game for some reason. And more times than not, its a game I am playing on my own. Because what I am actually waiting on is right before my very eyes. So many times I am looking for bigger or better and God has placed something before me and I have chosen to ignore it, or overlook it in my impatience.

 Yet in my selfishness I have tried to go ahead of God, or try to do my own thing, thinking and saying that I am serving the Lord in.......... whatever it may be.

In reality, I need to call it what it really is..... S I N! My impatience = SIN.

I have been given so much by God. And I push some of it aside waiting on Him to give me something else.

Our family has lots to pray about right now. We need God's guidance in many areas. In praying for God's will, we are waiting for Him. One thing He has shown me is that while I am waiting on Him, I need to know that He is for me.

God has placed so much before me in my daily life and sometimes, most of the time I forget what awesome responsibilities He has given me.... and lately I am failing at the jobs I have been given. 

In my impatience~

• I fail at my relationship with HIM. I need to be still before HIM and just spend some one on one time with HIM. Just worshiping who HE really is!
• I fail at being the wife that I should be. God has given me a wonderful loving husband and I need to work at being the wife God has called me to be. 
• I fail at being the Mom I think I should be.....God has given me our children. What a responsibility?!!! He chose me to be their mother! (Thanks D for that reminder!) A ministry that I take advantage of too often. Too many times I have beat myself up when I mess up as a Mom. It's not about the mother I think I should be, its about who HE wants me to be! I want to leave a Godly heritage to my children and continually point them to Christ. Thank God for His mercies are new every day!

In my quest to be CONTENT, I realize these are things that are of MOST importance. I must not forget what God has placed right under my roof. These are my first ministries and if I cannot keep up with what I have already been given, why should He give me anything else? Why would I want more? I have a long way to go in learning how to wait, but I will chose to press on right where God has me. How could I ask for more? 

I am waiting on Him to work in the above areas of my life. If it were up to me, the answers would come quickly, but it is not up to me. So as I wait, I will chose to:

Worship Him

Acknowledge Him

Invite Him to take control

Thank Him

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Are you waiting?

CONTENT: An Opportunity

Wow... its been over a week since I posted! Where does time go?? The last few weeks of school are busy, along with baseball, baseball, and, well, it leaves a Momma ready to lay her head down at night. By the time I slow down at night, I am a vegetable, so there is no way that I could possible put ONE thought together much less a post! 

With the word CONTENT that God gave me for this year, I have mentioned that in my quest to be content in my life, I do not want to be content in my walk with the Lord. This past weekend God opened a door for me to walk closer to Him. We had the opportunity to go on a Youth Retreat. I have to admit that I was thinking, whew, can I really handle this... along with everything else that is going on? I chose to STOP that train of thought and began asking ....

• God to prepare my heart for the weekend. 
• What He wanted for the Youth? 
• What could I do to point them to Him?
• What He wanted me to bring back home with me? 
• Asking for Him to change me! I wanted to be different than when I left!

Sometimes I do things, and I fail to ask Him what He wants. 'Cause I am a little, a lot wrapped up in ME. And I did chose to look to Him, read His Word, really listen to the words in praise music as well as did my best to stay focused on Him. Oh, the enemy was at work (isn't he always when you are doing something the Lord wants of you??) yet, I prayed that God would just fill me so there was no room for anything else. 

I have to say the weekend was AWESOME... God worked in so many ways. I love, love how He puts things together, in His Way and His Time. HIS WAYS ARE HIGHER!! 

Some things that I brought back and am clinging to and pondering on....(yeah, I know that this was a Youth Retreat, but I can say that it wasn't just for the Youth!) I could go on and on about every one of the following thoughts...but, I don't have time to write a book so.... you can dig in for yourself!

• God created ALL things..... did you get the ALL part?? 
• God has a design for everyone..... He has one for ME!!! & you TOO!!!
• The WORD was made flesh and HE is the GREAT I AM!
• Who is Jesus to me? ( I could go on & on!)
• I want to be like the Centurion and come to Him submissively, humbly, trusting, faithfully, & confidently (that one is tough for me).
• Learn to take orders before I can give orders. (ouch!)
• But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.Hebrews 11:6 ~ I need this reminder numerous times daily!
• It matters how I pray, worship, love, live.......IT ALL MATTERS!
• He's Alive! Worship HIM! HE IS WORTHY!!!!

Thank you Lord for giving me the opportunity to meet with you this past weekend, for allowing me to spend time with the youth, the counselors, our Youth Pastor and his wife. Thank you for the burden you have placed in their hearts. Lord, give them strength, liberty, mercy and grace to minister to this group of youth! Lord, thank you for the tender hearts, may you work in them so that they would desire to have a deeper relationship with you. Thank you for opening my eyes to the needs of some of those youth. Help me to point others to your Son in all I say and do!

In His Arms

Life has a way of pulling me in more directions than I can count. I allow myself to get stressed out, overwhelmed, anxious, tossed and tumbled. In all that, my focus gets off of my Savior and on my circumstances. I reach a point that I feel as if I can't take another step and I finally realize that I am depending on myself to make it. I know that I cannot do "life" alone and again I find my Heavenly Father waiting with open arms for me. Oh for HIS ENDLESS GRACE!

I ask that you pray for my mother-in-law, she is having a biopsy done today, as well as my father-in-law as he recovers from surgery. And if you will please pray for Bub, the Lord knows the situation. May GOD's hand be upon them!!

Praise the Lord for HIS MERCY AND GRACE!!!